sekali lagi..

Ermmm...sekali lagi aku terpaksa mengalah untuk puaskan hati orang lain...
kali ni aku sangat sangat sedih...:(

~ My Wish ~

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Ratu Hatiku...

A Song for Mama

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone that I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You will always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Chorus

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking of you
I'll never go a day without my mama



Happy Birthday Mak,
thank you for everything you've done.
I love you so much. Muahss!!

p/s : tunggu la orang balik dulu nak bt birtday party pon..sob..sob..sob....:(
mengalir jugak airmata ni.

what's all this?

Huh!!How do i say it? sob..sob..sob..kenapa tibe2 kena jadi macam ni, kenapa? Kenapa terlalu susah untuk aku dapatkan apa yang aku nak? Kenapa aku kena lalui benda2 ni semua? Kenapa tak boleh bagi aku some space n time to think all this things?? Kenapa aku kena buat keputusan dengan melukakan hati orang? I've tried not to be like this, but i can't. Sorry. :(

Deep down in my heart aku tak nak semua ni terjadi, tapi aku terpaksa. God... I hate myself right now!

Maybe this is God's way of testing me, maybe its His way of testing me before He bestow me with all that i longed for??? ~sign~ The question is AM I TOUGH ENOUGH TO GET THROUGH THIS?????


"Bila Allah cepat makbulkan doamu maka Dia menyayangimu, bila Dia lambat makbulkan doamu, maka Dia ingin mengujimu, bila Dia tidak makbulkan doamu maka Dia merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik untukmu. Kerana kasih sayang Allah itu mendahului kemurkaan Nya"

~ Jibam ~

Baru baru ni aku ada pergi satu pameran Ujang. Aku tertarik dengan novel ni. Sebenarnya novel ni dah lama seorang kawan mencadangkan aku membacanya, tapi aku tak pernah tertarik untuk membacanya.

Aku rasa novel dah agak lama keluarannya, seingat aku 6 7 tahun lepas pun dah keluar novel ni. Sekarang dah keluaran ke12 kata kakak yang jaga pameran Ujang tu.

Jibam tajuk novel ni. Aku sebenarnya tak suka membaca, tapi bila aku membaca novel ni, aku sangat suka, setakat dah 3 kali aku ulang membaca novel ni.

Ceritanya agak santai. Menceritakan kisah seorang budak lelaki lingkungan 15tahun yang bodoh2 alang yang selalu menjadi bahan ketawa penduduk kampung. Disebalik kisah budak bodoh2 alang ni, Ujang jugak memaparkan dunia rohani masyarakat melayu.

Adakah kita sekarang benar2 mempercayai dunia 'terselindung' sebenarnya, Ujang juga mempersoalkan sejauh mana kita betul mengerti dan memahami benda2 'terselindung' ni.

Memang bila aku tengok tajuk ni macam agak santai dan kelakar sebenarnya, tapi bila aku membacanya beberapa kali, sebenarnya novel ni betul2 bagi aku merasai 1 pengalaman hidup. Aku sebenarnya tak pandai nak buat sinopsis untuk Jibam ni, yang pasti bagi aku, novel ni sangat best. :)

" Kalau kau menjadi aku, aku yakin kau mengerti"

Nape mesti hitam?

Jom keluar makan, pastu kite pergi karaoke, ajak nina housemate aku.

Jom2, tema baju hitam ok! sambung siti lagi. Perlu ker tema?

Aku terus masuk bilik tanda protes!

ni la bahana nya pakai baju hitam! kakak nmpk gigi jer ok! isk.

pencahayaan yang agak bagus...


Gurls in black



p/s : buat2 majuk, tapi tak jadi terpaksa gak pakai color yg paling aku xsuka, bukan ape dah la kulit aku black2 sweet pakai hitam lak, nak nmpak ape wei???huwaaaaaaa...

Kisah Geng Nakal 1998 - Memancing-

Berehat sambil baring silang kaki di atas katil sudah menjadi kebiasaan aku& geng kalau berjaya memboloskan diri masuk ke asrama time rehat. Heaven sangat kalau dapat buat macam tu, paling best kalau warden dan cikgu sekolah tak dapat kesan ketiadaan aku&geng di dalam kelas, memang sampai ke petang kami akan bersantai di dalam dorm.

Duduk di atas kerusi kayu panjang depan asrama dengan menikmati keindahan kolam ikan yang hijau penuh dengan lumut diselikkan pula sedikit gurau2 kasar dan lawak bangang memang adalah saat yang paling best bagi kami bila waktu rehat.

Anak baharom mai sini! panggil Cikgu Lah guru displin cum warden asrama. Cis nape aku jer yang asyik kena panggil, ade cop ke kt dahi aku ni 'Budak Jahat'? macam haram. Sumpah aku dalam hati. ni bukan sumpah cikgu ok, ni maki diri sendiri.Jangan kutuk2 cikgu nt ilmu ssh masuk.

Awat cikgu, saya ada buat salah ka? tanya aku tanpa rasa bersalah.

Setakat ni xdak lagi la, sat lagi mungkin ada. Aku datang ni nak cari kesalahan lah ni. Jawapan Cikgu Lah yang agak berpuitis.

Poooommm...air merecik2 bilamana kasut aku dah selamat di dalam kolam lumut tuh.

Lain kali kalau taknak pakai stokin, kasut pun jangan pakai. Pesan Cikgu Lah dan terus berlalu tanpa ada sedikit perasaan sayang terhadap anak2 yg perlu banyak bimbingan ni. Hahahaha.

Aku& geng sambil tergelak terkangkang2 memancing kasut sekolah aku di dalam kolam yang berlumut tu tanpa disedari gelagat kami ditontoni ramai jejaka bajet bagus di dalam kelas.


Banyak dapat ikan tadi pidah?? Jejaka2 bajet bagus mula bermain api dengan aku sambil berdekah2 gelakkan aku. Macam setan.

Aku& geng memulakan kelas dengan tergelak2 di sebalik buku sampai ke petang.